Where will you be my darling? Where will you be when the dark is rising?
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Okay... I think its about time I blogged about the notable days in the last few weeks, beginning with the first week of August.
Firstly, on Singapore's National Day, the cellgroup had an outing at Orchard area. Uh, we did a lot of interesting and stupid activities which just made everything more laughable. Separated into the black (E458) and white (N337) we played Jenga, a round of arcade games, running around Orchard, making videos, and the biggest highlight of them all... everyone participating had to line up in one straight line and face Cineleisure, and YELL the Singapore Pledge. GEEZ! It was so freaking embarassing. Practically everyone around the area looked at the spectacle and we all felt like idiots. I don't think I'll set foot in Orchard for quite some time. -.-. Anyhoo, the black team ended up winning! Thanks to Isabel's lucky guess... and later went off to E2Max's chamber room to fellowship. And had a round of dart throwing after that. No one dares to come near me! LOL.
I mentioned a few posts ago that I was in a horribly pissed off mood a few weeks ago. I gave a few reasons why I was so ticked off, and I mentioned the cab driver who drove me back home managed to completely erase my bad mood. So, here's what happened that night. After leaving the cellgroup fellowship early, making a pathetic excuse to go off, I was still in a bad mood all the way back to Johor, and I checked the bus stop to see if there were still any bus services. It was late, so there was none, and I went back to take a cab. At night there's tons of cab lining up at the side waiting for passengers, so I had plenty to choose from. But one cab stood out; it was covered in Malaysian flags. And I mean really covered. It's definitely meant to catch attention and it sure caught mine, so I approached the guy and asked if he could drive me back to Bukit Mewah. He agreed and asked me to quote the price. This is the second time in my 6 years of staying here that a Malaysian cab driver has done that. I quoted the normal price, minus RM1 and he gladly agreed, which surprised me, 'cause most cab drivers usually try to push it up a ringgit or two. So while driving, he chatted with me, which is uncommon for most drivers in this area, and better yet, he was friendly. So after chatting, the topic of religion slowly cropped up, and although he said he was a Hindu, he said he learned a lot from Buddhism, especially the statue of Buddha. He pointed to the dashboard, where a mini Buddha statue was placed, and he said he loved how Buddha smiled, in the midst of everything, looking so care-free. He said everyone should be like that, free of worries, and smiling and being happy all the time. Now while I'm a Christian, I don't deny other religions have plenty to offer, notably in philosophy, but in terms of morality and real truth, call me biased, but living my life has shown me that only Christianity offers the whole experience, the true relationship with God. But while I do read up on other religions, what this guy said struck me a little bit. Buddhists are taught to do good works to work off the bad karma attained in previous lifetimes, so they can be free of the cycle of reincarnation. And speaking of being free, they're to be free from all desires, all emotions and all suffering, and attaining this enlightenment will allow you to enter the "heaven" of Buddhism known as Nirvana. What's Nirvana? A place of nothingness, where nothing exists because you're free from everything, and because you're free from everything including yourself, there's nothing left, and so you attain enlightenment. No offence to Buddhists, but thats the real truth of their religion. And 99% of the Buddhists I know think Nirvana, or heaven in the Buddhism realm is what's described in the Christian heaven. Even my cab driver acknowledged this, but he said that he didn't believe in their religion, but learned much from it, and again he specified the statue's great smile. I looked over and saw the smiling Buddha. The smile of the Buddha statue, coupled with this cab driver's really friendly attitude, plus his "advice" to me, cheered me up quite a bit.
I arrived home soon after, and I happened to chance upon a picture of Jesus, where He's bleeding and in pain on the cross, suffering while He's being mocked. Non-Christians, don't take offence at what I'm going to say, its just what I feel in my heart. I don't want Buddha, the one who smiles as the world continues to be immoral, where people die horribly everyday. The one who smiles and expects us to keep working off the past wrongs by ourself, who sits there smiling and oblivious to the reality of the world. I don't want Shiva, the one who destroys as she pleases, who's got skulls around her neck, who demands so much of her followers or she gives punishment. I don't want Confucius, who offered wise sayings but nothing more. I don't want Allah, who demands my death if I leave him, but does nothing to get me back. Where he demands jihad and the death of all unbelievers unless they're forcibly converted, who gained followers by the spreading of the sword, blood on his hands.
I want that Man bleeding up there, dying for the world because He wants us so bad and knows we can never work our way towards heaven. The one who's had His back stripped of flesh and blood, with nails hammered mercilessly through His hands and feet, and a crown of thorns piercing His head. The One who's miracles and prophets did not change hearts of stone, and so died to give us hearts of flesh. The sinless Man who was betrayed, mocked, beaten, wounded beyond what we can imagine in this day. His heart is pure, His life was perfectly lived and even the most perfect Person ended up on a cross. How can someone like me have hope then? I want that God because He did something for people who never deserved it. I want the only God who ever died for love. Because of Him, I don't end up in Nirvana, I don't end up with the Jade Emperor, I don't end up with 10 beautiful virgins serving me for eternity, I don't end up being reborn into another person or animal. But because of Him, I get to spend eternity with all my friends who experienced a relationship with the living God, with all the people who's lives 2 billion people read about in the Bible, with the countless people who've searched for truth and found it, with the people who never had a chance to live, with the angels who fought for God and served Him by helping us. But above all, I get to spend eternity with Jehovah, our Yahweh, my Jesus, always and forever. And this reminder of my reward thankfully eradicated my bad mood totally and continues to gives me a reason to smile more than Buddha.