Where will you be my darling? Where will you be when the dark is rising?
Sunday, May 10, 2009
I'm so, so, so, tired. But spiritually, it's been one hell (in a good way) of a week.
On Tuesday we had a church-wide prayer meeting. Then from Thursday to today, it was service after service with Pastor Pat Mesiti. I think I mentioned quite a bit about him in my last post. Hilarious speaker, yet his words are filled with deep convictions and spirituality. On Saturday he spoke about friendship. And boy, that was some of the deepest things I've heard about being a friend. He used the biblical example of Jonathan as a standard a great friend. Sure, Jonathan died fighting alongside his dad, but while he was alive, his friendship with David was the perhaps the greatest friendship ever recorded in the Bible. Although it was less humourous than the services on relationships, I'd say it was very stimulating, and very convicting, on how we treat out friends, and who are our real friends.
Today he spoke about prospering the Egyptians. In modern terms, that meant prospering the unchurched, so that we are a blessing to them, and therefore will have their riches given to us by God. I'm not gonna explain the details, as I think Christians will easily understand the context. The details may be a little hard to grasp for those who weren't there, but Joseph in Egypt was the main figure in his message. His business message was great, and face it, coming from a multi-millionaire, his words in having prosperity are sure to have a huge amount of weight.
The cellgroup went to fellowship later on at some place in Sri Kembangan. Along the way, I had a chat with Faith about the girl I liked. I asked her out recently. It was stupid, actually. We had agreed to meet up some time, and after prodding her, plus a few hints here and there, she's like you want to go out is it? I was like... I guess so. And she agreed anyway. Laughable eh? But true.
*Sigh* Some of the stuff I learned were things I didn't know too much about, or had no idea at all. Things like spiritual immaturity, emotional instability, childishness and all. I had some ideas of it, but to have it acknowledged by my own and her own cellgroup leader gives it a lot of weight in truth. Okay... I guess you could say I'm glad I'm more spiritually mature. As a guy, I'd like to take the lead. Not in a dictator way of course, but just... well, yeah, take the lead. At the same time, I'm sad that the difference is a much bigger gap than I could have ever imagined. It makes things harder, not to mention for her to rise up and grow, it will take more time.
And that means even more waiting, in addition to the past two years.