Where will you be my darling? Where will you be when the dark is rising?
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
A few weeks ago I fasted for one week, because the church was encouraging everyone to fast for the season of Arise and Build. Later I found out that only leaders were to fast 7 days, and normal members 3. Ouch. It seriously stretched my faith though, and my physical limits, 'cause I've never fasted for one week before, not eating for 7 days, only drinking plain water. I thought I'd share what its like.
Let's see... on the first day, it's no big deal, you can go about normally, just with your stomach growling a few times but you're still in tip top shape with enough sleep and water. It's fine, and praying at night is normal. Day two, you're slightly weaker, and you need lots of water to keep your energy level stable. On the third and fourth day, you feel like dying, seriously. You're pretty weak, and your concentration slips very frequently. Driving becomes harder as you need more strength to focus on your surrounding vehicles and roads. Your stomach also hurts a bit at this stage, and rumbling stops already, but you just feel extremely hungry. You're also a little more edgy and a bit cranky.
Interestingly, from the 5th day, you don't feel that hungry anymore. Your stomach only weakly reminds you you're hungry, and you are feeling much weaker. Prayer at this stage seems like a horrible chore, and even speaking in tongues feels like it zaps a whole lot of energy. Raising your hands also becomes harder as your hands feel totally heavy. My 4-pec (which disappeared when I moved to KL) also started showing up around this stage, which meant I lost some weight. The final 2 days are HELL. You feel VERY, VERY weak, and lying in bed seems like the only thing you can do. Walking up and down the stairs in the house is like dragging yourself to school on an early Monday morning, and water doesn't help you at this stage, it merely hydrates you, nothing else. Prayer feels like the last thing on your mind, and asking God for strength to endure is like the only thing crossing your mind when you're praying. Mind power is near zilch, as you're feeling so weak, and driving short distances is the only safe driving. I didn't try driving on the highway at this stage. Aiks.
It was quite an experience. The most I had ever done was just one full 24 hour day of fasting, and it hurt my stomach a little, but nothing else. Fasting for 12 hours once a week or so is my regular fasting period for me. But one entire week of 24-hour fasting? It's something I'm not going to forget. Kudos to Pastor Kong, who does two 21-day fasts a year, and Jesus, who fasted 40 days. Insane! But I praise God for His strength. Credits to Him 'cause I seriously don't think I could have done it myself. Sure, I felt weak, dead and all that, but spiritually I was very empowered. Because I didn't spend hours eating the whole day, I had more time to do my assignments (fasting coincided with the final week of school. Of all weeks... geez). And I also had more time to be more self conscious of myself. More aware of what I've done lately, and what have I been like. My showers were much longer than usual 'cause I was so tired and took my own sweet time in the washroom cleaning myself up.
Fasting also changes a few things taken for granted. When you're fasting, every appearance of food is freaking apparent. Food, stalls and all the things you see everyday suddenly are very noticeable. You see (in vivid detail) how its cooked, how it's prepared, and imagine how it'd be nice to just go over and shove it in your mouth. Thinking takes a bit longer than usual, but it helps 'cause you can think through more carefully on what you say and do. You go to the washroom a lot less, 'cause there's nothing to excrete except water. Also, from around day 3, your sexual urge is lowered like hell. On the last day, even for a guy, sexual urges and that "horniness" are totally non-existent. During the day pretty girls, skimpy clothing and all that grab your attention, but there's no uh, "lust" (for a lack of a better word) and its only like "Oh, okay". Yeah. I'm just being honest here.
Definitely something I'm extremely reluctant to do again very frequently.
Fasting for one week is something I think I'll reserve for major things.
Oh, one more thing. After breaking fast, and you start eating, your hunger comes back like ten-fold. And your mind's alertness comes back with full force. And your horniness rushes back really, really strongly.