Where will you be my darling? Where will you be when the dark is rising?
Monday, January 18, 2010
My insomnia's driving me nuts.
Since school has started, I haven't been sleeping well at all. My insomnia, which has been gone for a really long time, hit back with full force, as have my nightmares, which stopped for like a month or two. Heh, I'd like to make a joke that since college is back on, my nightmares are back! But in reality, I doubt it's really the reason. In fact, I don't really know the reason. I just know that I can't sleep at night, but I can fall asleep once the sun starts rising, which is really inconvenient, because school starts only a while later.
I yawn, I drink water, milk, read boring books (pretty difficult, 'cause I only buy interesting books) and a whole bunch of other stuff. I even tried reading the first few chapters of 1 Chronicles in the Bible! For the non-biblically versed, the first 9 chapters of 1 Chronicles are filled with hundreds of names of genealogies. I mean the Bible is God's Word, and there's a lot of fascinating stuff I've found out after reading really closely into 1 Chronicles, but I have to be honest, plainly just reading a few hundred names is an effective way to get sleepy. Well... at least till I got my insomnia back recently. Zzz.
It's led to me just staying up all night doing my assignments, which haven't piled up yet, and simply filing my unfiled files in my laptop. Then once its time I get ready to go for school, but I'm extremely tired in classes. My internet's been cut for over a month, so I can't do any chatting or surfing online. Watching movies isn't encouraged 'cause I'm trying to get to sleep, and I don't have any boring movies either. Why would I get boring movies for? Hmmm... well, now that I mention it, maybe getting one boring movie would be a good idea, under the circumstances.
Anyhoo, my insomnia and nightmares are a freaking creepy combination with my phone's ringtone; the Left 4 Dead 2 Witch cry. So anyway, a few days back I was having one of my worst nightmares in a really, really long time. I might even go so far to say its the worst nightmare I've had. I think I've said a few times that my usual recurring nightmare is me falling from a really high place, and when I reach the ground, I wake up in a jolt. This time it was much worse. I dreamt that I was in a dark cave of some sort, and I was in some kind of cart, like the kind you see in mineshafts. Then some lady (oddly reminiscent of Samara-or Sadako, for the Asian purists-from The Ring) would come toward me. Then the bottom of the mine cart would suddenly disappear and I'd fall. Well, that's good, right? NO! This stupid Samara look-a-like would freaking fall down with me and get nearer and nearer. Once she reached me and killed me, I didn't jolt awake as usual. Instead the stupid nightmare would restart and I'd be up in the cart again, and she'd come over again. Everytime there'd be something different about her before the minecart bottom disappeared. The first time it was her eyes that were the freaking horror. Second time round it was her mouth. And after that.. well, I can't quite remember how many times it restarted. I just know that after it kept repeating for a really long time I was woken up by my phone, which had somehow ended up behind my neck and pillow. The sudden phone vibration, coupled with the ringtone, and coinciding just nicely with the final death in the nightmare, made me JUMP up from the bed!