Where will you be my darling? Where will you be when the dark is rising?
Wednesday, May 9, 2012
Happy birthday to me. Lol.
Saturday was my birthday, and I'm now officially 23. Been in church for 9 years, been alive for 23. Was in Canada for 12 years, Singapore/Johor Bahru for 7 years and now my 4th year is in progress up in Kuala Lumpur.
I've been alive a little over 2 decades. Possibly a third of my life has passed, and maybe a quarter if I'm lucky. I was suicidal and depressed for most of my teenhood before finally getting out of that with friends and God. And now I enjoy my life, content and pleased.
The last birthday party I organized for myself was back in 2001, before I left Canada. 11 years later and I have not bothered to organize one birthday celebration for myself. I'm simply too lazy and can't really be bothered about my own birthday. So family or friends always plan it for me or celebrate with me. For that I'm eternally grateful. One thing, it is a reminder that I have people who care about me and will bother to celebrate it for me. And it's been a joy. Sometimes its just a simple meal, a treat, a gift, some money. Other times its clubs, a major meal outside or a symposium. And it's funny because I feel honoured that people would care more about my own birthday than me. I do have a "anything" kinda attitude for a lot of things, and its extremely apparent regarding my birthday.
So other people have always taken up the slack when it comes to my birthday. Although it initially began because I couldn't be bothered, now I still can't be bothered and I take it as tradition for myself. So things get tricky when different groups of friends organize things that clash. Hence, that comes the only time I make a decision regarding my birthday... what happens. Anyway, on Friday I met up with Ruz, Henry and Quen to just hang out, eat and catch up since it's been a while. It was also their way of celebrating my birthday with me. After some time in the arcade in Pyramid, we ate and walked around. Afterward Forsake Me Not had jamming in a new studio and after playing for a while Sharon went out to go to the washroom. Then she came back in with a little cupcake and they sang happy birthday for me, metal style. Hah. Jamming was productive anyway, and I headed to Sunway to meet up with Symposium, with Joseph joining us too.
The next day I didn't quite know what to do, since it was the actual day of my birthday. Symposium wouldn't be out until night, Essenism kind of celebrated and the band was celebrating later that night. So what did I do? I went for Saturday service. Lol. I haven't gone for Saturday services in a long time. But Pastor Kong was coming down today, with a couple of worship leaders from CHC SG and a few celebrities from Taiwan, so I thought, what the heck. Otherwise I'd just be slacking at home. It's funny to see my Singapore pastor referred to as a guest speaker here but yeah, he is anointed. Pastor Kong spoke about the cultural mandate, of how the tiny little vision Pastor Kong had eventually led to CHC SG becoming a megachurch, and how it influenced other churches to follow its method of reaching out to people using pop culture in their influences in the marketplace. Lots of videos were shown as testimony or memories of the time in the past, and for quite a number of them, it was a wave of nostalgia because I would see events I remembered in my mind, and the videos brought back the memories clearly. And to think a number of important church milestones were recorded and shown that day, it was a nice birthday present in a sense. Memories, one of my most treasured things. Synapses, grey matter... whatever. Seeing how far my church has come in 10 years is amazing, and to recall the times and hardships CHC SG went through was a nice reminder of how much we've persevered.
Anyway, it was a two-part service, with the second part ending at 9pm or so. I met up with Joseph and his friend Melissa during the break in between the services and we sat together for part 2. Once part 2 ended we quickly rushed off to meet up with Harish and drop Melissa back before heading to Luna Bar, where they were celebrating my birthday. Prthiv and Christian couldn't make it, so it was jus the 3 of us and Sharon, who would be coming late.
Luna Bar was beautiful as it was last time. And there were more people too, which made things nicer. However DJ Nika (or Nikla... I still haven't confirmed) wasn't around; it was some male DJ instead. We bought a bottle of tequila and downed shot after shot, which continued even more once Sharon arrived. Heh, there was one part where Sharon asked me what my wishes were. I said that doesn't tradition say that I can't tell my wishes or they won't come true? She said that I could, but just that I couldn't reveal all. I said that I've had 3 birthday wishes so far, so I'd reveal two. One was to get a girlfriend. The second wish, which was from Forsake Me Not's celebration in the studio, concerned the band so I wished that the band would become even better friends, staying united and make good music. Then I told her if she down three shots I'd tell her the third (after all, that wish tradition is fun to listen and follow but baseless). She did, and I told her... I wished for my friends to be happy. She was like "I downed three shots for that? The hell!". Haha! Well, I didn't give her the details at the time, but I guess I can take my time saying it here. I am currently very comfortable in my life. No major problems, and everything is stable. All the issues and problems I have are in regards to my friends problems. If all my friends had no problems, I would probably have none whatsoever. But I help out, and offer suggestions and a hand. Sometimes a shoulder. It affects me too, to a certain extent. So I wish that my friends would be happy, because then it'd make me even happier, and if there'd be less problems for them, through proxy, it'd be the same for me.
It wasn't hugely eventful. A lot more to deep conversations and jokes. I told Sharon about the whole Zhi Xuan story and she asked me what I wanted in a girlfriend. I told her I was picky and listed the general qualities I wanted. I wanted her to be smart above all, I wanted her to be attractive, and hopefully pretty, I wanted her to criticize me for my faults and to accept the same. And for every quality I listed, Sharon said "Like me!"... which is quite true actually. She actually fulfills nearly everything I listed on my New Years resolutions. More on that in another post. Also, somehow a bet was made that if Sharon couldn't read a certain passage in a book, she'd have to French kiss me. She claimed that she could read better drunk, which obviously didn't happen, and we ended up kissing. With tongues and all. Hahaha... and a drunk Joseph said that he has thought we were a very compatible couple for a very long time already.
Eh, Sharon looked really nice that night.
Sharon and Joseph ended up dying from all the tequila, while Harish remained conscious enough to talk, although he did puke. So despite them getting me to drink so much (and I drank more than all of them) I survived and was completely fine! HA! I had to hold Sharon when we were going off and I ended up having to drive her car back to her place. And brilliantly, police roadblocks were around. They stopped me and asked me where I was going. Then they noticed the drunk, passed out Sharon beside me and asked what happened to her. Forgetting that I was speaking to a police officer, I used casual lingo and said that she died, which shocked the officer. LMAO! I clarified that she drank too much and fell asleep. So since he knew we drank he gave me a breathalyzer test. Luckily he wasn't a moron like the last officer that gave me a breathalyzer test. Just once and he was okay. Fortunately for me my blood alcohol content was within legal limits (I cheated) and he let me off, apologizing. After reaching Sharon's home I took her to her place and after making sure everything was fine I went to Joseph's car; he'd drive back to Sunway and drop us to our cars.
And the next day, I'd oversleep for service, reaching really late! The cellgroup celebrated my birthday, and we joined a few others from Hsieh Liang's cellgroup. Faith's university friend and a zone supervisor from CHC SG also joined us. Had a great time! The cellgroup gave me cash as a present this time, probably because they don't know what to buy for me. Lol. Smart. Yellow shirts are only worn once a year =p. After lunch they dropped me off at Pyramid and I met up with Bruce and Justin at Ming Tien, again having another bunch of cakes from Bruce. We chatted for a few hours before going back to Justin's place and checking out metal bands and songs we were recommending to each other. We went to Mentari later on and chilled for a while before Joseph came and picked me up to play pool with Sharon. The rest of Symposium were going to Genting. Since it would last into the weekdays, I couldn't join.
So ended up going to SS15 to play pool, and I sucked like hell that night. I really don't know what happened to my skills! I only won Joseph once, and narrowly lost to Sharon for all my rounds. Lmao. After chilling and having some drinks, we left around 3am, and Sharon told me to take her car after driving her back home.
Why? I'll detail more in my next post. For one, I'm extremely tired now, and it kinda links with the events that happened yesterday anyway, so it'll connect. Not to mention it'll explain everything for a post that I'm writing up now, and am bloody questioning about.