There's been quite a lot of disturbing things lately. So I'll make this a disturbing post. Sort of. Depends on your point of view? But first, an interesting thing in school today!
During history, some very small fly flew onto my finger. At first I shifted my hand so it'd fly away, but it stayed on, moving around my fingers, almost like exploring it. Okay, so I kept it there. After 15 minutes it was still just moving around my hand. I needed to write down notes, and I was curious to see what would happen if I wrote with the fly on my hand. I picked up my pen, wrote and the fly still didn't fly off. It was pretty cool to see such a fly, so I left it there, and continued to write notes while the fly was still enjoying its ride on me. After half an hour, I needed to write quite a long set of notes, and the fly had begun exploring more of my hand than before. I quickly wrote my notes and realized that the fly had stopped going over the back of my hand. When I finished and looked down though, the fly was nowhere to be seen. I looked around my hands and arms but it was gone! Then I looked down and saw that in the flurry of my note-copying, I had squashed the fly when it was on the bottom of my hand. Geez! Sorry!
Not too disturbing right? Well, it gets worse. If you don't know, I regularly get nightmares. They're almost daily. Sometimes they stop suddenly but I'll always get them back. I only get nightmares when I have had over 5 hours sleep though. If I wake up with less than 5 hours sleep, I won't have a nightmare (or any dream for that matter). But there's exceptions. Sometimes when I take a nap on the buses or trains, I'd get a nightmare and usually I die, and I'd spasm in real life and wake up! Damn embarassing 'cause people would stare at me and think I'm some kinda weirdo. Well... I am a Psyko... so not too far off. Anyhoo, yesterday I had my most horrible nightmare ever. I cannot remember any nightmare that was as sickening as this. I don't usually blog my nightmares out, and its even harder considering I don't remember every single part of the dream, but considering I'm making a disturbing post, I thought might as well.
So the nightmare, I'll spare the specific details. I don't think you'd want to know all of the gory details anyway. Well... okay, my dream, well... started with me raping someone. No need to know who, no need to know how. I just did. After that I proceeded to get a knife and kill her. I went on and later played with a very cute dog, getting its attention until it trusted me and sat beside me, when I still had the knife. Then I killed it too, without the knife, but I used the knife to open its insides and I kinda forgotten what happened after that. Somehow I ended up with a few friends I knew, who had found out I raped someone. I felt very ashamed and hid myself, but they found me and demanded an explanation. I couldn't explain and suddenly I felt like poison had entered my mouth. I panicked and I proceeded to slash at all of them. Then I proceeded to hide their bodies in places that I now remember exist in real life, and would be almost impossible to find their bodies. Then I proceeded to jump off a building and kill myself, to avoid being found. When I finally reached the floor, I spasmed in real life and woke up.
Creepy. This is my worst nightmare I've ever experienced. Ever. I almost always die in my nightmares, and this was no different. At least the ending, but I've never had a dream where I've done such stuff. Just thinking about it now, and realizing that I know real places where I can actually hide dead bodies efficiently in reality is freaky already. Zzz.
Also disturbing. I was eating my dinner in front of my laptop just now. Yeah, my own. I accidentally left my laptop adapter in Singapore in Koh Wee's house and was stuck using my sister's laptop, which doesn't have any of my files and is much slower! Koh Wee mailed it over by postage, which cost 8 bucks, so its another thing I'm grateful to him for. Thanks! Anyway, as I was eating my dinner, I scratched my nose (more specifically, the burst pimple on my nose) and it started bleeding like hell! So I was eating chicken and fried rice, and I was very lazy to get up. So I just drank my blood, which was pouring like mad, while still eating my chicken and rice. Sounds gross? I don't blame you. However the taste isn't all that bad when mixed together. Hope you're not eating as you're reading this. I still drink my own blood when I cut myself accidentally. I haven't drank anyone elses blood for over 10 years, so relax.
Speaking of which, the pimple I mentioned, its dead centre on my nose! Ahhh! I get pimples every now and then on my face, but I haven't had one dead centre on my nose for over 5 years! Freak! It's a bloody big one too, and when I popped it, it left a bloody big and obvious mark, something that doesn't happen very often with my other pimples. Aye!
Okay... I suppose this is the end of all the disturbing news. Onto happier news?
I just asked someone out. How can I face her with a bloody big mark on my nose?! AHHHH! Shoulda waited till it healed before asking her out -.-. And I'm going out with Tiffany this weekend too. She's coming up here for some school organized trip. God, help me get rid of this bursted pimple mark!
Pfft. I thought I said happier news?
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Aye... had a good day today.
I had drawing class in school today. Turns out that drawing class is now practically painting class instead for the new semester. My drawing lecturer is called Jun Mei and she looks like an older Ling Hui! Naturally that means she's quite pretty. Heh. I don't mind. Since Lisa's gone, I've got a replacement pretty lecturer =x.
I also had service later on. Pastor Tan Seow How of Heart of God Church in Singapore came and preached. And well... the word he preached was fantastic. I can easily say it ranks among one of the best sermons I've ever heard in church. His message was a mix of a sermon, a Bible story and the personal testimony of his church. He spoke about dreams, and the 5 stages dreams go through. First, the birth of a dream, then the delay of the dream, then the death of the dream, followed by the resurrection of the dream and finally... the fulfillment of the dream. From the Bible, he used Joseph as an example. First the dream he had of him ruling over people, then the delay through his slavery, and the death through his imprisonment, and the resurrection upon the interpretation of dreams, leading to his great position in Ancient Egypt. And his life was the fulfillment of his dreams.
Pastor How talked about the beginning of his church, and his dream. He birthed forth the dream when he felt a calling by God to start a church especially for youths, made up of youths. So he and his wife, along with another 2 couples, began the ministry. After growing to around 100 people, he noticed that a guy (one half of the couples that started the church) was getting a little strange. He was a church leader and one of the few adults. It turns out that he was actually using the offering money to pay off his own debts, then would use his own money to replace it and make it look like nothing happened... then he'd do that again. Kinda like embezzling. Also, for cellgroup funds and everything, when the members paid and all, he would tell Pastor How that they hadn't paid, that the youths must have forgotten and all. Naturally, you'd believe an adult more than 15 year olds right? After further investigations it turned out that this guy was using the funds for his own debts too, so they confronted him about it. Instead of repenting, he quit and left the church, criticizing and condemning the church in the process of leaving. This was certainly a delay to the dream, but the death of the dream would literally involve death.
Not too long after this, 2 of his members were killed in a bus accident after a Sunday service. An SMRT bus driver had fallen asleep and crashed into them. It was right after service. People were still in the hall and Pastor How was still inside too. Then someone told him something had happened to 2 of the members. He went out with his wife, expecting a sprain or minor injury. Instead, he saw 2 bodies on the floor. They ran over and not knowing what else to do while waiting for the ambulance, just prayed for Aasta, who was beating her hand on the ground. After the brief prayer, she died there. The other girl, Agnes, was still alive, but barely. Her body had been torn in half. The ambulance came and just 2 hours later, she died. The church was devastated and several members left the church, claiming that if God was real, He wouldn't have allowed it, much less right after a church service. Critics of the church also used this to point out that Pastor How was midguided in starting the church and that this was punishment to prove that Heart of God Church wasn't a God-ordained vision. Pastor How also felt very upset and had fears Heart of God would be closed down.
However, through this, he used it as an opportunity to strengthen those who had stayed. After this, the church began to grow in numbers, and spiritually too. He was finally expecting the resurrection of the dream. And now, with the church currently with 1100 members, he's having the fulfillment of it.
Pastor How had said in the beginning that he was not here to make an good impression, but that he was here as a family to share about the dreams God gave us. And the way he shared, being so personal and real, it was just amazing. He had synced the preaching, the points, and the testimony in such a great and effective way. It was just pure brilliance. This was easily one of the best services I've ever had, the presence of God was so thick, and Pastor Kevin was just so amazed that he didn't even know how to end the service properly. So he just told us to end it by ourselves through prayer. It was really that great. It was super refreshing experiencing God like that again. So personal, so close, so tangible. The worship was also pure brilliance as well. Today was just a great service. Amazing.
This was one of those sermons you'll never forget. There's only been a few I can so clearly remember. Aside from those major ones like the Cultural Mandate, the Sermon on the Mount and all, there aren't many I can still remember. Conversionists (my first sermon), Shekinah, Kairos, Deja Vu, Friendship, one of Carl Gustav Severin's, who I can't quite remember what the theme was. Yeah, maybe a few more I can't list out at the moment. And now, I've got another one added, The Journey of Our Dreams.
Here's a few points from his message:
You have the fellowship of His suffering, then you taste the power of the Resurrection.
Your dreams will be attacked, it is inevitable.
Your scars can save people.
If you want a testimony, you'll have to go through a test. If you want a message, you'll have to go through a mess.And most memorable and powerful:
Make the dreams of others come true and God will make your dreams come true.
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Friday, September 19, 2008
Heh... sorry for the lack of updates. Been a little tired, lazy, and tired. And did I mention tired? Pfft. Second week of school and I'm quite tired already.
Anyhoo, Wednesday was a public holiday for the Selangor state but the main KL city itself didn't have that holiday. Wee~~~. If my Muslim friend explained correctly, it was the day that the Qur'an was finally assembled or written. Well. I'm not complaining. They should give us a holiday for when the Hadith was compiled too. And maybe the Vedas. Sutras? Oh, don't forget the Bible too. Lmao.
Anyway, since it was a public holiday, about a third of my classmates decided to go Red Box (Malaysia's K Box, and there's also another brand called "Green Box" -.-). Eh well... it was fun, for me it was mosly talking, laughing and catching up with Yen, who also joined us, for the first time in a long time since he changed class. I only sang one song, and when Leonard sang You Touch My Tralala (Ding Dong Song), we ended up making a continuous joke about it. Haha.
And yesterday, I had figure studies. We needed to draw live action people in very rough sketches. Very basic shapes and outlines. So the lecturer, Liang Feng, would show a picture, and within a minute, we'd need to finish the outline and basic posture. Oh yeah, we needed to draw naked women (and men) too. Lmao. I bet art school's are the only places where teachers show you naked bodies -.-. After that my usual group plus Leonard went to Mac, and we saw almost a third of the class there doing their assignments. We joined along, and I ended up having a long chat with Meng Shen about relationships. Life is way too interesting sometimes, I conclude.
I went for cellgroup meeting after that. Faith preached last week's service sermon to reiterate what we learnt. Speaking of which, James is no longer my cellgroup leader. Okay, here's the details, in case you don't know. Faith was the cellgroup leader of W19 (my cellgroup). They multiplied into W32, with James taking over. Then Faith went to SOT in Singapore, so James took over W19 as well. Sometimes he'd combine the cellgroup for cellgroup meetings, and every week it was a combined fellowship, so the people I mentioned that were in my cellgroup might not exactly be in my cellgroup per se. Yeah, so Faith finally came back to KL during Emerge, and she's taken over W19 again, while James can focus on W32 now. Yups.
Alright. So after cellgroup we had fellowship at Old Town, some cafe-restaurant place. Uh... let's just say I enjoyed seeing "her" for that few minutes, much less awkward than the other day. Okay, nevermind... no details here =p.
Today we had letterforms and calligraphy. We needed to use a special pencil and actually write out those Gothic type of fonts. Not easy, and I did pretty bad too. Luckily its a home assignment... so I better do it properly -.-. Later on after eating we wanted to play basketball. The only problem was... where do we get a basketball? We searched the entire Sunway Pyramid for a decent basketball but all we found were those cheap rubber ones. After looking high and low, Ruz finally found a place none of us had checked, and we found a leather basketball! Dirt cheap too. RM70 for a Spalding leather ball. The Neverflat Spalding ball was there too. RM 114 or something. Not bad, considering Singapore had it for like S$80 or so?
Well... I had my first basketball match in ages. Ivan, Ruz and I versus Kok Kin and Leonard. We lost 7-6! Geez. When Kok Kin shot well, I blocked Leonard. When Leonard shot well, I blocked Kok Kin -.-. Pfft. Also, the sun was bloody shining dead centre at the hoop. And since the backboard was transparent, it damn hurt my eyes. Not to mention I couldn't shoot at my favourite place 'cause it was dead centre facing the son. Aiks. Just hung around and chatted while shooting some hoops too. After a while of shooting with some strangers, we organized a match, and had settled on the teams. One of the guys said something like "Ready? Alright?" And we all nodded. Then just as he's about to start the game, Ruz shouted and said we needed to go off right away. Mood spoiler! LOL. Geez... at that perfect moment I needed to go off, 'cause his sister was driving me back. Awww... didn't get a chance to try out my skills properly.
I was asked out for basketball this Sunday with some of the church members, but its not confirmed yet. I so hope I do better -.-. But I hate sports in the morning. Zzz.
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Sunday, September 14, 2008
Okay. I'm a little freaked out now. I've been sleeping early for the last few days and waking up early too. No! That just isn't me! I'm not Howe anymore! -.-. This isn't the only creepy or weird thing to happen to me. I've been sick for the last 2 weeks or so and I'm just letting myself get better naturally. No reason to see the doctor. I was coughing very heavily just now and I tasted blood =/. It doesn't hurt though, which is kinda weird.
Oh, and just a bit of information, on my last Saturday in Singapore, I had Swensen's with Jonathan. I ordered cheese baked rice or something and I moved the dish to rearrange the position a bit. It was super hot! And I mean REALLY hot. I quickly let go and used the bottom plate to move the dish instead. My fingertips did hurt for a while, which I thought was normal. However, later on I realized that the scalded parts were white, and hard and almost "crispy". In other words, in the 1 second it took for me to hold the dish, it was so hot it managed to cook my fingertips -.-. It was bloody painful whenever those white parts touched something, and I couldn't feel with those parts very well. Somehow I feel that I can sympathize with "char siew" now.
Oh, and another creepy thing. I stayed over at Ruz's place a few days ago. I opened up a blog that had a really annoying song, and there was no stop button or something. So I turned his speakers to mute so I could read it without hearing the song. After a few seconds I heard heavy breathing coming from the speakers, and it didn't sound human at all. Geez!
Okay, let's move on to happier news? I enjoyed my weekends quite a fair bit.
Okay, on Friday, I finally settled everything. There wasn't a phone call, but it was settled face to face. Finally, back to before. *Hugs*. Later on about a third of my classmates attended this Mid-Autumn festival celebration hosted by the school. Eh, it was quite alright. There was this riddles section, and I kept answering them correctly, so I walked away with a fair amount of prizes. But guess what? They were all food -.-. Also, at the end of the mostly mediocre performances, the speaker asked whether anyone wanted to volunteer to perform. We straight away pushed Ruz after he came out from the hallway. LOL! He did his firedancing to great cheers and I think he did pretty well, heh. Also, later a baby came on the stage and started playing with the drums. No big deal right? But here's the cool (and scary) part, he actually played properly, and made a different beats and all. Yikes! His beats sounded pretty good, and he never messed up at all. He's only like 3-4 at most. Damn cute!
On Saturday I had service. Since my mom was going out early, I needed to follow her, and I just slacked at Sunway Pyramid till it was service time. While waiting in one area I bumped into Ruzanna, Ken, his friend, Henry. Geez, gathering or what? Anyway, I got a call from my lecturer Vivien that for the resubmission of one of my assignments, I needed to pass up a rationale, to explain the meaning and methods of my painting. Uh... she told me to pass it up at 1pm. It was 12:30pm then. Hell, I wrote as fast as I could and did a two page rationale in the end. I slacked in the arcade and played Tomb Raider: Legend on my PSP till I was picked up for church.
Service was good, and was preached by Keith. It felt funny that I was back in the small auditorium again, since I was in the giant one last week. But I've realized quite a few things different from a smaller church compared to a megachurch. For one, its a lot more cozy and personal. Turn your head anywhere and you'll probably see someone you know. This is unlike CHC SG, where unless you're in GT zone and in delta, turn your head anywhere and you'll probably not see anyone you recognize. Also, when the pastor preaches, you can actually see him. In CHC SG, unless you're really near the front, you'll need the screen to look at him. Otherwise, he just looks like a dot! After service they actually played the Liverpool and Manchester United match on the screen, and any cellgroup that wanted to stay back could watch it. Told ya, it's much more personal.
Had fellowship at some place they called "Orange" (because the entire building is orange -.-). Eh, mostly spent talking to Cherrie, trying to catch up. There was a conversation with the other members about some place in Indonesia. They say that the dead bodies there don't rot, or if they do, they don't smell in the process of decomposition. Creepy. Imagine you had a honeymoon there and a dead body spasms (which they do, in real life). Mood killer.
Today I had a dimsum buffet with W9, just like last time. Damn filling. We ordered 197 plates and bowls of food for the 12 of us. Insane! Of course it was nice, but I'm having a phobia of food now. It was 2pm when I ate. It's 4am now and I'm
still full. We hung around the place, and just went to the arcade before we went off.
Anyway, like I mentioned, my sleeping hours are getting weirder, and weirder. On Friday, after a lack of sleep for 40 hours, I slept at midnight and woke up at 10am. On Saturday, I slept at 1am, and woke up at 8am. Today I slept at 9pm and woke up at 4am! ARGH! What the? This is really weird. I usually don't get by with at least 12 hours sleep a day on the weekends. Hmmm... I'm still me, hopefully.
Okay... I need to do my history assignment already. Mornz all.
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Friday, September 12, 2008
Things are so much better. I want to blog it all down, today's events. Of course, excluding the personal details. Today's a great day.
But I'm too tired to blog -.-. I've been awake since 8am on Thursday morning. It's almost midnight right now. That equals to around... 40 hours! Hell, no wonder I'm so tired!
Okay... but I'm in a much better mood. Much happier and cheerful.
Things are back to before, at last. The previous post is now obsolete.
Nitez everyone. I need some serious rest.
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Thursday, September 11, 2008
Okay, the last few days of college have been some of the most awkward since school's started. Imagine walking with a friend and not speaking a word at all when you two are together.
Okay, in case you're wondering, yes this is about Morose. School has started, and remember the last time I ranted about what she did? Well, if you piss someone off, and attempt to mend the friendship, what's the first thing you do? Well, for her, its act like nothing's happened. Sort of. She's been trying to get on my good side by talking casually with me and acting like nothing went wrong. I reply with one word answers most of the time. 99% of the time I don't even look at her. You call this effort? Oh, please.
You see, for the first 2 times we argued, I always brought up the topic whenever I had the chance. No one likes having conflicts with your closest friends, and I wanted the issue settled. Either its fixed or broken completely. Okay, so I'd always cut the crap to get the whole issue over. The third time round, however, I just got tired. Why is it always me who settles it? Why the hell do I care so much that I need to get the issue over with? And I'm the one forgiving her in the end. This time round, I was just tired from doing that all over again. She breaks a promise, lies for the millionth time and then pisses me off. You could say its like a cycle.
Anyway, like I said, this time round, I was just tired. I'm not in the wrong yet I'm the one going for a settlement of the issue. So this time round, I didn't bother settling it. I'd give cold replies and ignore her in real life, to see if she'd still bother. What have I seen? If you actually bother about the friendship, the first thing you shouldn't do is act like nothing happened. But she does exactly that. You've pissed me off, and haven't apologized nor given an explanation. Do you seriously think I'd reply you happily and go "Lol" on conversations? If you do, you're really deluded.
Hell, I wanted the issue settled. So what's the first thing she does? Take things for granted. A few weeks back she asked me and another friend out for a movie. She asked for my opinion on what movie. I wanted to watch a horror movie, but she was adamant on not watching a scary movie. Fine, since I'm fine with any movie and she doesn't want to watch a scary movie, I said anything. She took that as a cold shoulder on my part. Geez. You ask for my opinion, but you don't want to watch what I suggested, so I say watch whatever you want. You know what happens? She doesn't reply anymore, and my friend and I have no idea what's going on. Even at 2am she didn't bother to reply us and we needed to ask what was going on the next day. She never gave a clear answer, and I only found out at 9am that she had ditched us and decided to watch a movie with another person. I had already seen the movie she wanted to watch, and I guess she assumed I wouldn't want to watch. Right. Movies are for people who haven't seen them only. Not for hanging out with friends and chilling out. I'll take note of your logic. She coulda at least told us that. Nopes. She left us in a lurch with no idea what the hell was going on.
Geez. Why must I bother about the friendship if she doesn't? Does she? If she does, she's got a hell of a way of showing it. If you really want to fix the friendship, I need an explanation. Why you've lied a million times, and why you haven't apologized. Contrary to the other 2 times, I actually want an apology this time. Mainly because I find it damn weird that everytime she pissed me off, it was me taking initiative to solve it. Everytime she did something wrong I always went to try to solve the issue. This time round when I didn't bother, neither did she. Okay, so I take it that unless I take initiative, she doesn't care? Fine, so be it.
Like I said. I want an apology. For the first time I want one. Second, an explanation. Better be a good one. If it's gonna take 20 minutes to say something, then forget it. If the argument lasts 9 hours like the last time, I'm fine with it, so long you can explain yourself in the end. Oh, and don't lie in the process too. You did that countless times and I still forgave you at the end of the argument. Sometimes, I think I forgive too easily. Not this time though.
I expect a phone call on Friday night. You take way too long to reply in MSN. 20 minutes to give a few words. Geez. I'm not going to waste my time. A phone call to settle it. If not, I assume you don't care about the friendship at all. If it comes to that state, don't ever address me again. Heck, don't even look at me. You can still sit around, you can still ask me things, talk to me. But don't expect me to ever look at you again. After all, by then I'd known what you consider friendship. Screw your friends and act like nothing happened. And for you, to expect them to settle it all the time.
For those who think I'm a moron right now, I don't completely blame you. It's just I have a tolerance level. A pretty high one at that. I can have someone I hate scratch my eye and piss me off almost daily and I still won't react. However, screwing your close friend 3 times in a row (me) kinda brings it to a different level. And boy, did she push the right buttons to exceed that level. I've just had enough. If you don't bother, I don't see why I should either.
A phone call. Friday night. Remember. If not, don't consider me as your friend at any point in your life.
"Screw your friends and act like nothing happened." Sometimes I amaze myself with quotes.
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Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Things are different in class. I'm not the only one thinking so. Take a look at some excerpts from some classmate's nicknames.
"wat is happening !!!"
"why is everyone not being normal anymore......?"
"falling apart"
"Something is somehow different from wat it used to be"
"Since everyone's saying it, I'll join in. Things are different"
Yeah. I'll make another post on this issue another time. Not in the mood now.
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Monday, September 8, 2008
Aye... I'm back in KL already.
Well... my week in Singapore was quite enjoyable, albeit too short for my liking.
So, did I manage to do all I wanted here? Not really -.-.
Lets take a look at what I wanted to do.
1) Go on a second date with Tiffany. Yeah, our first date was like 5 months ago -.-.Well... when I asked her out it turns out she was uncontactable. Eh -.-. Well, she's coming up to KL at the end of the month anyway, so I'll go out with her then. Date is postponed =p.
2) Hang out with the Magic gang. Go clubbing with the Magic gang. Play Magic with the Magic gang? Lol.Well, we did catch up and play Magic. But we didn't go clubbing! Zzz. Nevermind... November =D.
3) Chill with Gary. Our last chill out was like 4 months ago?Dunno why I didn't end up chilling with this cheap drink -.-. Nevermind... November too!
4) Surprise Khar Loo. How do you surprise someone who knows she's gonna be surprised? -.-.I have done my job =D. Surprise, surprise =x.
5) Ask Ms Koeh out for dinner. She agreed last year December. LOL. (This is the tentative one, heh).Looks like my dinner with Ms Koeh is going to be a year after she said yes -.-. Till November!
6) Attend Bible study, of course.Yup. They've got slideshows included now. Felt kinda weird just entering the class even though I'm not officially taking AFV anymore.
7) Attend cellgroup meeting, of course.Yup. I actually wanted to surprise Michelle. However, I couldn't contact any of the people who were attending cellgroup meeting, so I ended up calling Michelle asking how to go to the new cellgroup venue -.-. Spoiled my own surprise!
8) Attend service in CHC SG, of course.Yes! One of the things I was most looking forward to. I mean, no offence to CHCKL, but it's been like 3-4 months since I've entered a hall with 8000 chairs. I kept yelling "8000 chairs!" when I entered the hall, and kept yelling like a madman while going towards the traditional delta area. They've got a new widescreen LCD and two "side portions" that add effects and all during praise and worship. They've got a huge playground for the little kids too. But there's something still the same (besides the 8000 chairs). Service is still awesome!
9) Fellowship with whichever cellgroup fellowships with E458.Hmmm... we actually bumped into N337 and N362 (who've multiplied, by the way) and I was hoping we'd fellowship together. We ended up going different places to eat though. At least I caught up with a few in the MRT.
10) Catch up with my dad.Done. You don't need the details =).
And some other random things I want to do: See Causeway Point again! Pray in St Andrews Cathedral again! Go Chips again! What else? Forgot =/I missed the Chips night, and I wasn't free for practically all the nights anyway. I didn't get to pray in St Andrews either, 'cause I was going out with friends here and there! No free time at all. So yeah. However, I did see Causeway Point again. Seems nicer than before for some reason.
Yeah. A week (less) isn't enough time spent there. Kudos to Koh Wee for letting me stay over for so long while I pillaged his house of snacks and drinks =x!
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Saturday, September 6, 2008
Permission granted from leaders in both countries.
Target(s) will be pursued.
Geez.
Operation Wrath of God anyone?
LOL =x.
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Thursday, September 4, 2008
I'm back.
"Finally. The Rock has come back-"
Kidding. I'M back. Heh =x.
Boy... some things are different. Sheng Siong's logo has changed. Causeway Point's got quite a few new shops.
But some things are pretty much still the same. Like... everything else I haven't seen yet -.-.
Hope you like the chicken, Loo Loo =x.
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Monday, September 1, 2008
Haven't slept yet. Bloody emo-ing now =/.
Nah, I'm not sad or depressed. Just feeling guilty.
Very.
Ahhhh!
Anyway, I went to Bar Celona the other day. Yeah.
Wanna see fireworks from Emerge?
Lol... okay... it's actually from last year's Emerge. Oh yeah, speaking of which, I think CHC SG will show the Emerge KL video, so see if you can get a glimpse of me holding my silver medal =p. My teammates and I are all wearing red, if you're wondering.
I need to sleep. I didn't know guilt was so good at keeping you up. If I had known, I'd be guilty during school days so I could stay up and do my assignments properly. Then again, I'd be so guilty I don't think I'd have the mood to do my assignments.
Anyway, when I come to Singapore, I've already got a few plans in mind. Some are settled. Some might need confirmation. Only one is tentative. What are they?
1) Go on a second date with Tiffany. Yeah, our first date was like 5 months ago -.-.
2) Hang out with the Magic gang. Go clubbing with the Magic gang. Play Magic with the Magic gang? Lol.
3) Chill with Gary. Our last chill out was like 4 months ago?
4) Surprise Khar Loo. How do you surprise someone who knows she's gonna be surprised? -.-.
5) Ask Ms Koeh out for dinner. She agreed last year December. LOL. (This is the tentative one, heh).
6) Attend Bible study, of course.
7) Attend cellgroup meeting, of course.
8) Attend service in CHC SG, of course.
9) Fellowship with whichever cellgroup fellowships with E458.
10) Catch up with my dad.
And some other random things I want to do: See Causeway Point again! Pray in St Andrews Cathedral again! Go Chips again! What else? Forgot =/.
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The last 2 days of Emerge have been great!
Think this is gonna be a long, long post.
On Saturday, I woke up early in the morning for the morning session. Guess who I saw when I arrived? Cherrie! LOL! I was bloody shocked, 'cause I didn't know how she'd react upon seeing me. Turns out that although she ignored me a few days after the clubbing incident, she spoke to me perfectly fine, and she seemed to be more humourous than before. Okay... good, since she's alright with me again, I guess I've got no problems with Eddy already. And she looked really pretty that day also =x.
For service, Pastor Kong spoke about being a son or daughter to your leaders, and the differences between them and servanthood. He spoke about how you can always expect Christians to serve, but only few will truly be sons or daughters. The people that will go all out to sacrifice, to serve and to love and follow your vision. He gave a lot of examples of the people who've been sons to him and servants. Interestingly, for every "character" he mentioned, I knew real life examples of my own friends and people I knew. Hmmm... it was a really good and hard-hitting message. Also, the presence and atmosphere was so much better than Friday's opening. It was great!
Afterward we ate and checked out the Talentime finalists. I was impressed by a few and disappointed in a few, but one really stood out. He did something with a guitar I have never seen in my life. It was more than just plucking, but he used it like drums, used chords, plucking and all together to make a really great and catchy tune. I voted for him through SMS. But he didn't win =/. Also, there was a heavy metal band as one of the guests! Army of Three I think. Local one, and the bassist was pretty cool. He did this thing where he'd throw his bass guitar (with the strap of course) around him and he'd continue playing it when it swerved. I don't think the majority of the church liked it though, 'cause the cheers were quite soft. I was like the loudest cheerer for them? Oiiii...
We also saw the Manhunt and Beauty Pageant finalists too. The prettiest girl (who I also voted for) didn't win. Aye! Okay... the evening session was preached by Pastor Kong again, and he spoke about the cultural mandate. There were a few things that were mentioned again from when he first preached it, but he gave a lot of practical and theological teachings from it, and expanded a lot more than when he first preached it. Also, he used real life examples (Denzel Washington, Mary J. Blige, and his wife, Sun Ho) to show how they were making real life impacts, in the midst of scrutiny and controversy. He also talked about his own controversy in Singapore, and although i knew about the issues, I suppose it was an eye-opener for plenty of the people in CHC KL. Had a time where Pastor Kong prayed for people in the entertainment industry, and I went home after that.
Next morning, it was a service held by CHC KL. Like a normal service, only inside the Sunway Convention Centre instead. Pastor Kevin preached about increasing measure, both in spiritual and material aspects. He also talked about the vision of our future, and how this hall was a reflection of what we'd soon have. Very inspirational =D.
We had workshops later on. There were 4 of them to choose from. Picking the right partner, social etiquette and personal grooming, starting a childrens ministry and the dynamics of worship leading. I picked the first two, and they were very interesting. Pastor Zhuang and his wife talked about picking the right partner. I knew most of the basics, but it was interesting to learn about their personal opinions as well as some more in-depth knowledge. Also, the Q and A session had a lot of my questions answered. Later, although I initially didn't want to go for the social etiquette thing, I stayed because I figured I might as well check it out. It's a GREAT thing I didn't miss it. A lady called Jill Lowe talked about TONS of stuff involving first impressions, assumptions, and appearances. She even talked about how to take off your jacket properly (and she did it AMAZINGLY) and even how to walk properly. Don't assume it was some boring talk on improving your self-image. It was so much more. She's extremely funny, and she's very personal and engaging. She's easily one of the best speakers I've ever heard in my life. Yeah... LIFE! No kidding! She's coming down for Asia Conference too, so although I didn't want to join the social etiquette workshop, I'm changing my mind now. Also, during the talk, she needed certain people with certain traits. When she asked for a person with spiky hair, everyone around me pointed at me -.-. Along with 3 others, a person with long hair, flat hair and little hair. LOL at the last one. She made us stand on the stage with her and made a few jokes about our first impressions. So she asked the audience to vote to see which personality we were from the choices: Pop singer, nightclub owner, accountant, and dispatch writer. The guy with little hair (uncle) was voted as the accountant, and the guy with flat hair was voted as the dispatch writer. For pop singer, I had like 40% while the long hair guy got 50% of the votes. Heck, when she asked which one of us was a nightclub owner, no one put their hands up for the long hair guy, but for me the entire audience put their hands up! HAHA! I'm a nightclub owner. Geez. Free drinks for all!
She did need to end it quick, 'cause it wasn't supposed to be over an hour. But she was just so entertaining and there was so much more we could have learned. Either way, I learned some unique things. People with less hair are usually considered more trustworthy with money, but more stingy. People who have flat hair are statistically the people who earn the least money. People with spiky hair form a wild image. Interesting. You've just got to attend her talks to really see how much she knows. It's brilliant, brilliant, brilliant. Later on, we had Celest Foo, Miss Charisma of Miss Singapore Universe 2007 teach us about makeup. Eh... I listened, but I'm a guy, so most of the makeup stuff didn't apply to me. I did learn quite a bit though, and hearing about all the kinds of makeup and their effects really makes me wonder how girls can manage with all that -.-. Kudos to the female species then. LOL, species =x. Afterward I took a picture with Jill and Celest. Haha! I also got Celest's email. How many of you can brag about getting a Miss Singapore Universe Charisma's email?!
Had a meal before going for the final session. After the praise and worship, performances and such, there was the medal awards. In the end, MINT was the POS champion (no surprise there), and they performed their brilliant cheer again. They also ended up as the overall cluster champion, so congrats. VU was last. Aye! Last year's champs became this year's last. Zzz. Later on, Pastor Kevin intereviewed Petrina Fung. Better known to international audiences as Fung Bo Bo. I've heard of her, and heard that she's a legend in the Asian media. He interviewed her in Cantonese, and talked a lot about her life, how God changed her and a lot of different issues. The interview lasted for so long Pastor Kong couldn't preach! He needed to rush off to a flight, and so this was the first Emerge ever where Pastor Kong didn't preach in the finale (or any session for that matter!). But you know what? Fung Bo Bo's testimony and interview was so great and deep to an extent it was as if the interview became a preaching and testimony session. It was really that great. So for the altar call, they had the celebrities pray for the people too! Quite cool. Afterward after more praise, we ended with the traditional song to end all of our Emerge conferences. You know.
Fellowshipped with the cellgroup afterward, and it turns out that the CHC SG team actually ate in the same place as us! Celest Foo was there too. Pretty cool to have a celebrity notice you and wave. Okay, sorry for bragging =x.
It's been a great conference. Although smaller in scale compared to Singapore's, the presence was still the same. The messages were still great. The performances were entertaining and we really learned a lot. And we were all blessed.
And Cindy, you owe me a pic with you in the POS uniform!
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Tiffany and Co. LOL!
Lol... okay... it's actually from last year's Emerge. Oh yeah, speaking of which, I think CHC SG will show the Emerge KL video, so see if you can get a glimpse of me holding my silver medal =p. My teammates and I are all wearing red, if you're wondering.