I guess I've got time to blog. I said two months back that I'd eventually type and describe how we got together. And so I will. Firstly, I met Sharon late November last year. On Joseph's birthday, he told me he needed to pick up a friend from TBS, who had arrived from JB. I was like, sure. When we reached he pointed out to a pretty plain girl with a lot of luggage, and asked me to help her. I got out and offered my help, and she just walked past me! I was like what the hell? I was quite annoyed at being non-existent, but eh, nevermind. In the car they spoke about some stuff and I was dropped back home. Later at night we went for a drink at Gridiron, Bangsar. Sharon was there too, and that plain girl I saw earlier today who annoyed me, was absolutely gorgeous at night. I honestly didn't think they were the same person when she first walked in. But she was with Alfred at the time, so I didn't think of anything. Besides, I had only met her hours ago. She ended up giving me a blowjob that night too. Heh, a blowjob is a kind of alcoholic drink. She lost a bet with me and that was my prize. Don't assume too much now.
The next day Joseph asked me out for pool, and invited Sharon along, since she was an avid pool player. Relatively even match, but that was the last time I hung out with her for many months. I occasionally saw her at church once every few weeks, and had the rare hi's in church. Then one day Underoath was coming to Malaysia, and Joseph asked the band to go, for the experience, and to learn. Only I was able to make it, and Sharon was up for it after being invited by Joseph. She wore what I still consider her nicest outfit, and we headed off to KL Live! Underoath was pretty good, but short. But she headbanged and enjoyed herself completely. Anyway, Joseph and I were talking about the band stuff while she was in the car, and she asked if she could join. We thought, why not? Aidan and Oli had left already, and I was being asked to try playing bass. Sharon was a top grade pianist who was a piano teacher for a while. She could definitely do much more than I. So she joined the band and we made played together every week. Naturally we talked more as we saw each other every week, and she asked me to join her to drink at Changkat. I was free, so I went along, and I met her friend Susan, plus a bunch of her other colleagues and friends. But yeah, every week after jamming she'd ask me along to drink, and so we got to know each other much more. I mean alcohol and chats? Ho ho, brilliant combination.
This went on for a few months until Fibiee's birthday. By this time I had already considered Sharon a very close friend, and both of us shared everything, with nothing to hide. On Fibiee's birthday, we ate at Shogun, and Sharon remarked that she planned to go to Changkat alone. After I commented on her plans, she asked me if I wanted to join her. I had nothing to do at home anyway, so I was like sure, why not? I had a great time getting to know her even more. I already had nice feelings to her by this time, and adding more to that was my birthday celebration with the band a while later, and where she kissed me. After that night, for some reason, whenever she SMSed me or called me, my heart would jump a little. Skip a beat. Feelings that I had not felt for a very, very long time. Yeah. I didn't think much of it at first, but eventually I started to get expectant whenever I received an SMS, hoping it would be her. I was hoping she'd ask me out to drink whenever she did (which she did most of the time) but basically, I began to like her. And it was really nice. And really weird. The timeline from this period to right before I confessed is well documented in my previous posts. Refer to there, lol, I don't think I need to repeat myself.
The night I confessed to her, I had already liked her for a week. I didn't know at the time, but she told me later that she suspected that I had liked her already. Anyhoo, we arranged a drinking session with just the two of us, but while deciding where to go, we were in Sunway, she decided to call up a friend of hers that she hadn't seen in a while, Joey. But since we were in Sunway, and Symposium wanted to know who I was hanging out with so much (I hadn't joined them on weekends for quite a while) so I decided to show them who she was. We got into her car, drove past Ming Tien where Symposium was hanging out and waved. Justin and Redzuan rushed over to the car and gave various comments that made it pretty obvious what was going on. Justin said something like "Oh, finally meet the legend", and Redzuan was like "Nice to meet you, future Mrs Foo" LMAO. Oh geez! Made me laugh like hell and smack my face (metaphorically). We drove off and headed to Puchong.
At Puchong we met Joey, her very pretty friend who was drinking beer with a group of people that weren't very chill. As they weren't very chill, we got our own table and chatted. Somehow the conversation turned to who I like, and I mentioned that I just began liking someone, and she kept asking who. And who. And who. Naturally, I kept saying stuff to put it off. Afterwards, I confessed in the car and we discussed everything about her issues, concerns and fear of being cheated on from past experiences. She had broken up with Alfred for quite some time at this point, but also remarked that she had cheated before.
That top half has been left there a while. We've broken up, lol.
I had a list of things I wanted to mention, and apparently a long list of issues I documented, which in hindsight showed how toxic the relationship was. I had the gig Symposium organized with TFHM called Metal Massacre, which was great playing with a partner. Also the disbanding of Forsake Me Not and her perspective on the whole issue. We were featured one some small news media, went through some good times, some bad times and the horror that was meeting her parents. I was grilled by her dad about my Christianity and intellect. I was forced to wear a red checkered shirt to make a good impression, lmao. Eventually my answers satisfied him and I impressed her brother Silas, enough he was chill with me and even shared The Gospel of the Flying Spaghetti Monster with me while we discussed intellectual issues.
The negative stuff I listed below, I'm not even going to bother editing. They were my thoughts in 2012-2014, and however immature or irrelevant they were, were an indication of where things were going.
Promised to not get angry, to tell her the truth, she still gets angry
Forgot the charger when we went to JB, forgot to bring glasses, I drove to Cheras, I never yelled at her, unlike her when I forgot to ask for payment from Michelle, laundry
Still making break up jokes here and there, less but still made
Gets angry when I glance at a girl unintentionally, has no problem looking at handsome guys, openly jokes about finding a white guy(s) and having babies with them
Still says extremely hurtful and harsh things when we argue, despite saying she would stop
Apart from lessening breakup jokes, she has not changed for the better and refuses to.
Got angry when I said emotions come up unexpectedly but she still misses Li Kang unexpectedly as well
Asks me not to assume, assumes herself
Keeps blaming me everytime she can't find sth in the bag, 99% of the time its in the bag, I never get angry
Complains about living in Cheras, late for service.. when I stayed at her place, i was late everyday for TOA. I din complain
Embarrass me by introducing me to her frens who dislike me, playing l4d only to kill me
Doesn't like me laughing and not telling her wat I think. She does that herself, d'sayang, after svc (David Shirley svc)
Says that white guys can sleep around becuz its their culture, but asians can't becuz its not their culture
Tells me to stop doing sth when she doesn't like it. When I ask her to, she refuses.
Complains when I drive and suggests me things. When I tell her wat to do, she gets angry. Angry when I brake suddenly. She does all the time
Criticizes me for my driving, sudden break sometimes, potholes sometimes. She breaks suddenly as well, goes over potholes. I dun criticize her
Will never change aspects of herself, even when I ask her to. Demands I change almost everything about me.
Forgets to turn off washroom light every morn. I forgot sth and she becomes extremely angry.
Makes me late for work everyday. For 6 mths
Tells me to not bring up past issues, if we have an issue, settle it on the spot. She brings up the past all the time. Amber court, second masayo, bringing up next day
Says that she's the kind to get over an argument in the morning, letting it go. She has rarely let it go. She'll keep the anger the entire day next day. Only let it go once
Treats me like her maid. I need to take care of her phone, contacts. demands I beg for forgiveness over trivial matters, like a dog. When she says sorry and i dun accept immediately, she says I said sorry, wat more do u want, angrily
Says gays should be killed and she would kill her child if gay. Yet questions my morality
Calls herself rational. But jus wants to hear things that please her, whether true or not. If it doesn't agree with her opinion she says watever and ignores it
Does not value when I tell her the truth
Being right gives u the right to raise ur voice, her exact words
Doesn't care if beliefs don't make sense, jus don't question
So wat if it doesn't make sense? I believe it, her exact words
Says I should still treat her well while arguing. Treats me like Shit when arguing
Claiming me wanting to get married is crap cuz i don't think we're ready
Grumpiest person ever in the morn
Told her to stop saying "u dun love me". Says it continually
Says that if we love each other, should still treat each other well. She leaves me stranded at work, hangs up my call in the middle of it
Scolds me for not getting credit card scanned, stuff. I dun get angry at her for forgetting stuff, calling tv guy, forgetting keyboard adapter
Takes her time going for job interviews and meetings when we're super tight, blames me when I take it slow
Says we shouldn't tell other ppl our issues cuz they dunno both sides of the story. Tells other ppl in simple terms: I lied, blah blah
Says Mich acts like a princess. So does she. Throws her fone at me to turn on her light app, need to charge her fones. When angry, gets me to turn on WiFi and accuses me of turning it off. Bag is right beside her, gets me to walk over to dig out the fone
Threatens to.not.drive me to work when we argue at the previous nite sometimes. Says its not threatening. Different from me when I said we should.spend a few.days apart
Heard her say LDP. She has messed up b4 but corrected herself. I joked saying i heard LDP, she insisted NPE and got angry saying I accused her. wth hangs up on me
Burned Sacwrath tee after my mom washed her clothes, says its cuz she loves them
Can't find housekeys, accuses me of taking them when she told me herself it was in the car
Said I din give her money when she has my atm card
Doesn't like to share or tell others our problem, and she's ashamed to tell others her views, homophobia, creationism, telling symposium I can't join cuz she's not there
Gets angry that I'm sad my pretty fren died. I can only mourn for ugly ppl?
If u love me, u should do this, should know that
Summer sun Facebook.incident, got angry cuz I accidentally pressed accept
Said i dun comment on her fb enuff, while I'm with her in real life, even when our internet is cut
Seremban incident, if dun come by wat time, she wont bother. I finished work late
Says races should be segregated
Argued, said sth Asri claimed to say. I said he didn't. I call Asri call to confirm. he agrees with me. Then she says I was wrong for doing that. She doesnt value facts, jus being right
Accuses me of chatting with Tiffany and not her, I never did, showed timestamps for proof. then she says i was wrong for not telling her i was chatting with a fren
Putrajaya bomb
If I really loved her I would call instead of sms, would do this would do that
Affecting working life, says I dun love if I sleep becuz i'm tired
Says wtf about me saying she should still want me becuz I love her. She said the same, no one can have me, only her cuz she loves me
Reminded her not to use the credit card unwisely. Only can use it for this first. She gets angry, says I'm stingy but can spend 1000 on my phone. No savings cuz of her, spend so much money on her says I dun love her
Forces me to change my cover photo featuring her. She doesnt do the same. Neither for watsapp.
Doubt is care, paranoia is care
Can go shopping for bags when she disappears after our big arguments. But for me to watch movies means I go on with life
Bukkake incident, says I know porn terms, therefore i must watch porn
Dun smile in pics taken with her but with cindy
Tempted dick pics - flirted and received dick pics from a guy in usa, shared it with susan talking about it and tempted to cheat on me
Doesnt tell me about guy in usa, surfing with him when she says we have no secrets
Leaving me stranded with no transport the next day is better than me walking/driving and leaving her behind
Will cancel bali cuz she has no mood. Selfish
Believes love is all there is to a relationship. That it is the only thing needed.
Can walk off anytime even without a way to be contacted
Complains and whines about mot packing bags properly when she doesnt take any responsibility
Can lie to her frens when its convenient, angry when she needs to make a lie she's not prepared for
Gets angry becuz I cant do a certain sexual position that Alfred could. Stops sex
Threw her phone at me becuz I didnt wake her up for her morning appointment when she never told me to
Din attend her gig. Reached home 15 mins b4 she played. Said I couldn't bother to attend her gig by going online to find gig address and take cab there. Got angry said I din put enuff effort and that any b4 in the world would do it. I was exhausted from career fair
Drove off cuz I wouldnt wear orange. Says she can force me cuz I made her angry. To compensate
Whining about not caring for her
Malay sonh ong bak rindu
Only looks at wat I do wrong, not herself, until much later
Gets locked inside of the house and demands I go cuz I need to check her car keys for her
Saying I dont love her
Always rmb likang's death. but forgetting our anniversary
Told her to shut up. She said wat did u say to me? But she can say stfu in front of the band
Doesnt understand male sexuality and responses, thinks erections pop out when we're horny and can be controlled. no erection means i'm not turned on
Asks me to go dowstairs almost every single nite when we're in bed to get stuff for her even tho I said I dont like it. Still does it.
Says I was ok with it cuz I went down. I did it becuz I love her. She said she drives me in return, which I do too when I have the car. I left jb against my dad's wishes and woke up early so I could go down to pick her up from the airport. I waited at tbs when she missed the train, din complain
Told her over a period of 3 days her good points, when asked to do the same to me she fell asleep
Isnt financially responsible after yrs. Can pay joe on time but not me and my mom
Talks to me fine in church gives me attitude afterward and breaks up
Would spend money on her trip to taiwan, or new zealand instead of paying ppl back
Finishes orgasm and says ok done. For 8 months
Financial insecurity, outbursts and anger, more with the idea of a wedding than marriage, no preparation for future. No savings, I was ok with emotional insecurity and mental health becuz I said I would
wet towel on bed
Annual leave wasted cuz dealing with her
Shark fin thing, says we should kill more sharks to eat becuz of some ppl attacked by sharks
Yeah, wow. I actually forgot some of that, but when re-reading it, remembered every single incident. Anyway, we were better off as friends. Was hilarious when she was calling me about advice on how to deal with her new boyfriend, Ben Yaep, and everything he was doing was exactly as immature and stupid as she was. Except now she was on the receiving end.
